A reflective article on how procrastination has to do with worry from composing coach, Beth Barany.
There you are. You wish to compose, however something stops you. You turn away, do the dishes, clean the counters, pay the costs, anything but compose.
Yet, your story contacts us to you in the night, or upon waking. And you misery with ever finishing the story or polishing it to a fine shine for your readers.
What stops you?
I doubted the options I d already made in the story.
I doubted my skills as an author.
I trembled before the possibility of needing to make more tough choices that would repair the story into its final kind.
When Book 1 had actually been well received, I was scared of what others may think of Book 2 in the series.
Its simple to procrastinate and beat yourself up about it.
What has you turning away from the important things you prefer most in this world– to send hearts skyrocketing or beating hard, eyeballs glued to the page, readers hanging on your every word, their daily lives forgotten?
However if you know the cause then possibly you might have more empathy, more grace, on your own.
I was scared I simply could not measure up to this ideal I had in my head for delivering good writing.
I say its worry– the kind of fear that has me scurrying far from the page in wordless panic, not even recognizing what Im doing chores up until Im up to my elbows in suds, and the composing or more frequently editing hasnt been done by the doer– the writer– me.
When I was torturing myself for not working on my last revisions, I recognized this just recently.
A buddy pointed out having grace. In that instant I understood why I d been avoiding the work.
Was I doing justice to the story I wished to tell?
And the most pernicious of doubts and fears and negative self-talk: who the hell did I believe I was to be able to tell this story?
And the dark whisperings that I d never suffice, never ever have the right qualifications, never ever determine up to “those” individualss ideas of what an excellent story was …
Oh boy. So severe.
Oops and double ouch.
Under the Layers of Procrastination
To get more particular, for the writing and modifying, I make the action workable, little enough that its easy to say, “I can do that.”
Since at the end of the day, what matters is that I appeared fully for the story– mind, heart, body, and soul– which I made progress, however small.
Often that indicates I set my timer for 10 minutes, or 20 minutes, or I choose to deal with simply one paragraph or one page. Or when I composing new material, I provide myself the easy goal of composing 100 words or 500 words. Whatever feels easy.
After honoring my worries, I had the ability to get to work and face my story. And then make one story decision at a time.
I bowed to deep space and all the unknowns, for I am little in the face of all that.
Thats all. Thats how I get working once again.
All these layers under procrastination, all these “good” reasons to keep away from the novel, from the work of my heart and soul, to stay arms length away from the deep and hard work of being an artist and leaving my all heart and enthusiasm and facts on the page.
So, as soon as I recognized I was afraid and acknowledged all those shouts and whisperings, acknowledged the primal need to flee from the work, I held myself with compassion, with grace, and I provided it as much as deep space– the thing that is higher than everybody, the thing that triggers life and creative concepts and love and mystery and the marvelous Unknown.
What is procrastination for you? How do you manage it? How do you get composing once again?
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ABOUT BETH BARANY
An award-winning novelist, Beth Barany writes sci-fi and dream for young people and adults. Her first unique Henrietta The Dragon Slayer won Grand Prize in a California Indie Author contest.
Known for developing abundant world, kick-ass and tough heroines, and rejuvenating romances, Beth produces cinematic stories to empower readers to be the heroes of their own lives.
You want to compose, but something stops you. You turn away, do the dishes, clean the counters, pay the costs, anything however compose.
Sometimes that suggests I set my timer for 10 minutes, or 20 minutes, or I choose to work on just one paragraph or one page. Or when I writing brand-new material, I provide myself the simple objective of composing 100 words or 500 words. How do you get writing again?
When shes not penning rip roaring reads, Beth runs an online school for fiction writers, speaks at conferences and worldwide cultural centers, most just recently in Saudi Arabia, and enjoys her numerous dragon figurines sprayed throughout her home.
Based in Oakland, California, with her husband, Ezra Barany, also a novelist, Beth has lived abroad three times– Quebec and two times in Paris, France– and speaks proficient French.
For giveaways, excerpts, and more about her books, go to Beths site: author.bethbarany.com.